Okay before I start this little tirade, I'm going to be straight up and honest with folks, and I'm not going to pull any punches here..
"I'm thinking of quitting"
*Loud gasps being heard from the MMD D community here on Iwara*
Alright, look, it's not the end of the world.. or perhaps it is..
It seems that as of late any form of art is in fact behing unappreciated and it's because of the fact that I've started to see a disturbing trend..and tha is people have short attention spans, and ar lazy and are in fact uncaring ..In short, they don't appreciate artwork..
I'm goinng to tell you a little story.. back in 2004, I was forced to retire, and not by choice, I was actually forced to retire from my work due to health issues, Doctors told me to quit my job or be dead by the time i hit 50. well I toodk their advic3e and did that.. I quit..
So the question taht comes up is "What do you do with your life now that it is over?
Answer: You challenge youself.
I went out and tried a few things, one of them being art (I was always the science kind of guy, who used hard facts and figureds to ge the answers he ought. and sure even there my dreams were squashed.. So I decided to take up art..
I Tried my hand at drawing.. and you know what the most devestating reply I got was
"Don't quit your day job". (Ough, that hurt) but then what do you do when you're unemployed and you need a life, you then turn to your hobbies
and one of the hobbies I found was Miku Miku Dance.
it was a mixture of art and science.. taking computer models and manipulating data in order to take data and turn it into something artistic.
sure you go look on my opage, and you see some of the work I've done, sometimes taking days if not weeks to produce, but then I am at a distinct handicap here, cause to be honest, well, Im handicapped (ye folks I'm legally blind and yet I held a job for a while till other health issues took over..
So wait you're saying, why ar eyou telling us this.
Well the answer is simple, I take up the challenge when I am able to try and produce art..
And as of late, a lot fo my work has been rather disappoingting to say the least..
Its not that I can't make art, in fact I can. The fact is people are so unappreciative of it..
and I'm not the only one.
If you look on this thread some people quit doing art due to relationships Some do it because of the fact that they have a new career, and some of us like myslef do it for the challenge and the enjoyment of it. Like myself.
and yet we're underappreciated. Yes you heard me we are Underappreciated.
I can put the proof out there in the form of three things, namely views, likes and of course comments.
Now I'm going to giv eyou a little thoght exercise, and It's a fun little experiment to say the least.
LEt's say you enjoy doing to a strip club or some form of entertainment where dancing or dances ar earound.
let's say you enjoy a bit of entertainment and you don't say anything about that person or person..
Then one day you come in to expect to see one of their shows, and you find out that they're not there anymore. and you ask the manager why.. and he tells you why.. Cause no one commented..
See in the game of MMD, Views are one thing, it shows you how much your work is enjoyed.. IN terms of likes, it shows who does apppreciate your hard efforts but it's in comments tha it gives you something that gives you someting. and that is in fact feedback on wht you are doing wrong and why you are doing right..
but if no one comments, then are you doing it right? Or are you doing it wrong..
Well if you go to my page some of it is right, some of it si worng but it's the fat that it shows in the number of likes and views..and in fact if you don't have at least 1 comment, how do you know if you're doing it right?
A good analogy here is going to a strip club, you see a good dancer, you are gracious and give them a little cash tip and you don't say anything else, but you like the show and come back again, and again, but you say nothing to them or to their manager..
One day you come in and you sit down to enjoy your favorite dancer, an in fact the entertainment starts and you suddenly realize..
"Hey why aren't they around? You go to their manager and ask "WHey why isn't this girl up on stage, and the manager tells you the blunt truth..
"Oh her? She quit, you ask why and it's because no one commented on her peformance, and in the end, she fell into a bit of a depression and realizing they aren't doing a good job, they just up and quit." In short, what the manager is saying is that "If you had commented on her, and had said something, maybe I could have persuaded her to stay and even offered her a little extra salary (yes folks strppers are paid salaries just like office workers (and for you guys over in Japan, it's the same ther etoo).
so in a manner of speaking it's a job..
Now where was I ? Oh right I I digress.
Putting in time on a project isn't easy. It can be long nights of being alone, trying to gifure out what you are doing right what you are doing wrong, and how to go in and fix it..to make it look better, after all that's what an artist does..
I jsut recently talked to a real life aritst buddy of mine. I enjoyed and have enjoyed his art for over 2 decades, and in fact he's a lot like me. Very social and enjoyable to be around. and his work? I can say that he's a quite talented fellow to say the least. and in fact when I started showing him my works here on Iwara he commented and told me what I was doing right or wrong.. and gave me ideass on how to make things work better and that's why the views whent up..
But then as of late I've sene a disturbing trend to the side of the term "Don't quit your day job" takes on new meaning.. in short, it means 'get a life..
So that's where I am. at a crossroads of sorts.. I want to continue but.. since no one comments and only like s and views the work I've seen a disturbing trend on my work, and that is in fact that since No one comments , my work has been suffering, few and fewer views and less and less likes.. it's like the stripper analodgy here..
So why do people quit? Somettimes it's because of the fact that they are starting a relationship (Like mm3077) some of them get that new dream job they want (Like wabba for example) but sadly some of use are just tossed under the bus and are forgotten.. remember my artist friend Kevin Karstens? Well I got a letter back on the 9th stating that he was hanging up his adult artwork career, and you know why? Becuase of the fact no one ever visited his site.. and this guy has been in business for 2 decades cranking oout arkt on a daily if not weekly basis. But s of late,k the number of people who commented said nothig, and in the end he closed his site.. also I hear he's gettinga divorce due ot the fact that just like me I've social and very friendly. I try to give feedback to other artists (Sometimes you see me making a few comments (Some of them funny, some of them serious) but still it's a comment and that gives the arist or creator of a video hope..
but as for me, fewer and fewer views, fewer and fewer likes, and above all no comments..
and it' that last one is the one that comes back to what I am sitting on.. the thought of quitting and just doing MMD for my own personal enjoyment..
It's not that I don't want to shar emy ideas wit you guys, it's just that a lot of folks just don't sway anythign about it..
and it's that silence which speaks louder than words be it positive or negative.
Right now I'm going through a bit of depression, a bit of housecleaning on my comptuer and above all a new look at this.. and I'm wondering
Should I quit?
The real answer is right here on this form post. all you have to do is speak up.. or remainsilent, and like I said, by not commenting it says to me you don't want to see any mof my work anymore..Silence may be golden but then silence also kills.. Nuff said